Strange Fruit

Quiet prophets all abound
Listen closely to their sound
For truth is never loud and never simple
And all false truths that came before
Will pale in all comparison when it hits you
Like a storm that started small
Grew with every sweeping wind
Every mind that it has found
And every mind that found in it
The only meaning that truly means
A little something called eternity
Immortality and all humanity.

[edited oct 9]

I found myself scribbling... I guess it's a bit of free association. I wonder if it makes sense... I acknowledge the fact that sometimes I don't make sense to other people. Anyway. hahaha... aral na ulit.

Well, yeah, blah blah, you've heard it all before. My brother is my idol :)

One morning he messaged me to ask me to look into programs that link his specialty, computer science, with biology, chemistry and other sciences. He said he wants to study again because he's no longer learning in his company and current industry (computer gaming) in general. The field is called bioinformatics. And the reason he wanted to link to the sciences was because he wanted us to be in the same field. Love love love love!!! :D I never thought kuya and I would ever be working together :) I've always had my sights on med and he's always been into computers... ang galing lang :D. He wants to get into things like the Human Genome Project... computational things like that.

The man's smart. He wanted to take masters in physics before but always thought that since he has a mortgage it might not be possible. He looks pretty decided now, he wants this bioinformatics thing. I'm looking forward to studying with my brother, that's never ever happened before. Haha :D



Haay... old theater friends, I need help. Message me, okay? :D

I can't be luckier when it comes to friends. There's this cycle of self-loathing I go through whenever things don't work out with uhmm... yeah... basta...yun. Well, it's normal, but waaaay unhappy. That entire episode of self-loathing was bypassed with the help of Hany and Karenvie :D I'm hardy (according to that stress hardiness scale) but even the hardiest person needs others to help her up every once in a while. They postponed studying to go with me to Trinoma ^^ and we just went Timezone crazy. Haay ^^ It's love, I tell you. Friends are true love. :)

I love this poem.. actually, I love G.K. Chesterton :) I lent my Chesterton anthology to a friend and I never got it back... tsk tsk.

G. K. Chesterton - A Ballad Of A Book-Reviewer

I have not read a rotten page
Of 'Sex-Hate' or 'The Social Test,'
And here comes 'Husks' and 'Heritage'...
O Moses, give us all a rest!
'Ethics of Empire! ... I protest
I will not even cut the strings,
I'll read 'Jack Redskin on the Quest'
And feed by brain with better things.

Somebody want a Wiser Age
(He also wants me to invest);
Somebody likes the Finish Stage
Because the jesters do not jest;
And grey with dust is Dante's crest
The bell of Rabelais soundless swings;
And the winds come out of the west
And feed my brain with better things.

Lord of our laughter and our rage,
Look on us with our sins oppressed!
I, too, have trodden mine heritage
Wickedly wearying of the best.
Burn from my brain and from my breast
Sloth, and the cowardice that clings,
And stiffness and the soul's arrest:
And feed by brain with better things.

------------Envoi
Prince, you are host and I am guest,
Therefore I shrink from cavillings ...
But I should have the fizz suppressed
And feed by brain with better things.


PS: August 28, 2007 at 6:30 PM, there's gonna be a total Lunar Eclipse... very romantic ^^

Yummmmyyy... ang sarap ng freedom talaga. Ang sarap idelete ng messages n'ya, ang sarap ng pagrerelease ng kupalness n'ya to friends. Hindi ko kasi ginawa 'yun to protect his image... ******* what image?!
Sabi nga ni Karen parang pakupal ng pakupal mga boys ko. Ugh, so true. Sana s'ya na ang peak at bumaba na ang trend, please?

Anyway... :) happy happy and still kinda sad.
Dahil napostpone ang tambay night nasad ako dahil napa-yes ko na rin si Earl at long last. Gagawin ko sana s'yang surprise to my two buddies. AGH! What the hell! the one time na um-Oo s'ya ay ang time na napostpone ang event. Grabe. Labas na lang kami sa gabing 'yun, coffeeshop malapit sa bahay namin. At, grabe, for more flattery! He goes to the same gym as mommy so I said nga na ma's been inviting me to go kaso hindi ko pa tin-take up. tinatamad kasi ako mag gym e... i prefer to run sa road. Alam mo sinabi n'ya "DO you even need to?" YEBAH! Thank you thank you! Sarap ng ego boost talaga!

I'm in Seattle's doing my Participant Observation. two hours worth na ang meron akong data... tatapusin ko ba? Kasi dapat till closing time... e wala namang nagbabago talaga masyado... at ang dami ko nang notes! Sige na nga, yun naman original plan ko e.

E: great in bed.
R: fuckin' crazy (in a fun way).
I: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.

M: great in bed.
I: great in bed.
C: you are really silly.
H: you have a very good personality, looks and a very good kisser.
A: you like to drink.
E: great in bed.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
A: you like to drink.

Sige nga, icontradict n'yo yan! :P Miranda Morayta!


Choose what is applicable to you:

A: you like to drink.
B: you like people.
C: you are really silly.
D: one in a million.
E: great in bed.
F: you are dead sexy.
G: you never let people tell you what to do.
H: you have a very good personality, looks and a very good kisser.
I: great in bed.
J: people adore you.
K: you're wild and crazy.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
M: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
O: awesome kisser.
P: you are popular with all types of people.
Q: you are hypocrite.
R: fuckin' crazy (in a fun way).
S: easy to fall in love with.
T: you're loyal to those you love.
U: you are really silly.
V: you are not judgmental.
W: you are very broad minded.
X: you never let people tell you what to do.
Y: best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z: always ready.

I love his (yes, him, this new person I mentioned) quotes. :) Ang intellectual kasi e, mutual mental fondling ito... minsan nakakasawa na rin ang mental masturbation e. ^_^ Oo, alam kong gets n'yo 'yan at alam ko ring alam n'yo na masaya gumamit ng provocative words.

yun lang :) 160 na ulit. Netter! Pinel! My loves!

PS: bakit walang gwapo sa starbucks? Ay, sorry, meron pala kanina! Bakla nga lang.

You Are A Hazelnut Tree

You're a charmer with a killer sense of humor. You are very demanding, but you can also be very understanding. No matter what, you always make a lasting impression - you're quite popular. Passionate, you are an active fighter for social causes and politics. In general, you are moody, honest, a perfectionist, and very sexual.

I may be aware of Barnum effect... but tell me this doesn't sound like me?
I figured if any horoscope is appropriate it's the celtic one. That's half my heritage, after all :)

Now if only a Filipino one existed somewhere :)

If it weren't for the fact that I knew men like my father existed, I'd have allowed hotstepper to crush my image of all men. My father also taught me, directly and indirectly, not to settle for anyone less than the man who will love you more than the universe.

Just this friday was mom's 50th birthday. My beautiful mommy who looks no older than 40 :). He gave her this extraordinary watch... and he doesn't want to tell us how much it cost! On the back there was an engraving, "I love you forever, Jim"
My mom read it out loud and asked in a cutsey manner, "does forever mean until I die?"
Dad replied, "No, longer"
And the next day, during breakfast, he said that if he was ever widowed, he'd join the priesthood. And that was not a joke, he seriously meant it... I believe he really will.

They were married twice, y'know?

Since I was a baby I've listened to my parents' little anecdotes of married life. Here's a good one...

My mom was pregnant, they were living in the States and it was around 2 in the morning when my mom was hit with a craving for lechon... LECHON. My father went out in the middle of the night looking for a Filipino restaurant open and willing to serve him lechon. He found an Aristocrat's cleaning up after closing and banged on their door, he explained that he had a pregnant wife and so they served him. :) I know the same thing happened with watermelon in winter, he, again, obliged.

He told me to find a man willing to go out of his way to provide for his wife's pregnant cravings. A man not willing to do that is not worth calling a man.

I used to think, how did mom ever find my dad attractive? Haha :P I'm so mean. He's a good looking guy but at the time they were dating he had a beard and long hair. Mom was also quite ligawin and was previously engaged to a lawyer (with whom she broke up with before she even met my dad)

My father, to this day, maintains that his family loves my mom more than him. Hahaha, my aunt actually told him that if he didn't marry her, he'd be dead meat.

The story as to how they got engaged is really very fascinating.

After months (8 I think) of dating, dad had no intention of marrying mom just yet. They went out to this place and met a gypsy man. Dad said he knew the man was a real gypsy because he had this thick Romanian accent. The gypsy served them this coffee called Honeymooner's coffee, it was coffee with a shot of rhum and a sugar rim. The gypsy man looked at my dad and said, "before the night ends, you're going to ask her to marry you." They laughed it off at first and it didn't even stick in their minds... but funny enough, he did ask her to marry him that very night. No ring or anything like that, he just blurted it out.

In hindsight, he said that it's not good to waste a good gypsy curse.

27 years of marriage and he's still crazy about her.

He said something to me not too long ago, "The greatest gift a man can give his children is for him to love their mother."

So tell me... do men like my dad still exist in our generation? Yes, they have to... because my dad raised men like my brother, caring and respectful men who will love the women in their lives wholeheartedly.


Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder
I dedicate this song to hotstepper.

"I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye"

let's get this straight... I'm going to get pregnant... stop studying soon after... screw up and go to jail... find someone and get married... and end up depressed and miserable.

Yup. sounds about right.

WALLFLOWERS lyrics

I just really love the lyrics. :)

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