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Just a Little Something
Oct. 7th, 2007 | 04:56 pm
Quiet prophets all abound
Listen closely to their sound
For truth is never loud and never simple
And all false truths that came before
Will pale in all comparison when it hits you
Like a storm that started small
Grew with every sweeping wind
Every mind that it has found
And every mind that found in it
The only meaning that truly means
A little something called eternity
Immortality and all humanity.
[edited oct 9]
I found myself scribbling... I guess it's a bit of free association. I wonder if it makes sense... I acknowledge the fact that sometimes I don't make sense to other people. Anyway. hahaha... aral na ulit.
Listen closely to their sound
For truth is never loud and never simple
And all false truths that came before
Will pale in all comparison when it hits you
Like a storm that started small
Grew with every sweeping wind
Every mind that it has found
And every mind that found in it
The only meaning that truly means
A little something called eternity
Immortality and all humanity.
[edited oct 9]
I found myself scribbling... I guess it's a bit of free association. I wonder if it makes sense... I acknowledge the fact that sometimes I don't make sense to other people. Anyway. hahaha... aral na ulit.
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This is why I LOVE my brother.
Sep. 19th, 2007 | 10:50 am
Well, yeah, blah blah, you've heard it all before. My brother is my idol :)
One morning he messaged me to ask me to look into programs that link his specialty, computer science, with biology, chemistry and other sciences. He said he wants to study again because he's no longer learning in his company and current industry (computer gaming) in general. The field is called bioinformatics. And the reason he wanted to link to the sciences was because he wanted us to be in the same field. Love love love love!!! :D I never thought kuya and I would ever be working together :) I've always had my sights on med and he's always been into computers... ang galing lang :D. He wants to get into things like the Human Genome Project... computational things like that.
The man's smart. He wanted to take masters in physics before but always thought that since he has a mortgage it might not be possible. He looks pretty decided now, he wants this bioinformatics thing. I'm looking forward to studying with my brother, that's never ever happened before. Haha :D
Haay... old theater friends, I need help. Message me, okay? :D
One morning he messaged me to ask me to look into programs that link his specialty, computer science, with biology, chemistry and other sciences. He said he wants to study again because he's no longer learning in his company and current industry (computer gaming) in general. The field is called bioinformatics. And the reason he wanted to link to the sciences was because he wanted us to be in the same field. Love love love love!!! :D I never thought kuya and I would ever be working together :) I've always had my sights on med and he's always been into computers... ang galing lang :D. He wants to get into things like the Human Genome Project... computational things like that.
The man's smart. He wanted to take masters in physics before but always thought that since he has a mortgage it might not be possible. He looks pretty decided now, he wants this bioinformatics thing. I'm looking forward to studying with my brother, that's never ever happened before. Haha :D
Haay... old theater friends, I need help. Message me, okay? :D
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Social Support
Sep. 10th, 2007 | 10:41 pm
I can't be luckier when it comes to friends. There's this cycle of self-loathing I go through whenever things don't work out with uhmm... yeah... basta...yun. Well, it's normal, but waaaay unhappy. That entire episode of self-loathing was bypassed with the help of Hany and Karenvie :D I'm hardy (according to that stress hardiness scale) but even the hardiest person needs others to help her up every once in a while. They postponed studying to go with me to Trinoma ^^ and we just went Timezone crazy. Haay ^^ It's love, I tell you. Friends are true love. :)
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I Found IT! :)
Aug. 16th, 2007 | 08:18 pm
mood: 
happy
I love this poem.. actually, I love G.K. Chesterton :) I lent my Chesterton anthology to a friend and I never got it back... tsk tsk.
G. K. Chesterton - A Ballad Of A Book-Reviewer
I have not read a rotten page
Of 'Sex-Hate' or 'The Social Test,'
And here comes 'Husks' and 'Heritage'...
O Moses, give us all a rest!
'Ethics of Empire! ... I protest
I will not even cut the strings,
I'll read 'Jack Redskin on the Quest'
And feed by brain with better things.
Somebody want a Wiser Age
(He also wants me to invest);
Somebody likes the Finish Stage
Because the jesters do not jest;
And grey with dust is Dante's crest
The bell of Rabelais soundless swings;
And the winds come out of the west
And feed my brain with better things.
Lord of our laughter and our rage,
Look on us with our sins oppressed!
I, too, have trodden mine heritage
Wickedly wearying of the best.
Burn from my brain and from my breast
Sloth, and the cowardice that clings,
And stiffness and the soul's arrest:
And feed by brain with better things.
------------Envoi
Prince, you are host and I am guest,
Therefore I shrink from cavillings ...
But I should have the fizz suppressed
And feed by brain with better things.
PS: August 28, 2007 at 6:30 PM, there's gonna be a total Lunar Eclipse... very romantic ^^
G. K. Chesterton - A Ballad Of A Book-Reviewer
I have not read a rotten page
Of 'Sex-Hate' or 'The Social Test,'
And here comes 'Husks' and 'Heritage'...
O Moses, give us all a rest!
'Ethics of Empire! ... I protest
I will not even cut the strings,
I'll read 'Jack Redskin on the Quest'
And feed by brain with better things.
Somebody want a Wiser Age
(He also wants me to invest);
Somebody likes the Finish Stage
Because the jesters do not jest;
And grey with dust is Dante's crest
The bell of Rabelais soundless swings;
And the winds come out of the west
And feed my brain with better things.
Lord of our laughter and our rage,
Look on us with our sins oppressed!
I, too, have trodden mine heritage
Wickedly wearying of the best.
Burn from my brain and from my breast
Sloth, and the cowardice that clings,
And stiffness and the soul's arrest:
And feed by brain with better things.
------------Envoi
Prince, you are host and I am guest,
Therefore I shrink from cavillings ...
But I should have the fizz suppressed
And feed by brain with better things.
PS: August 28, 2007 at 6:30 PM, there's gonna be a total Lunar Eclipse... very romantic ^^
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Emancipation
Aug. 3rd, 2007 | 12:33 am
Yummmmyyy... ang sarap ng freedom talaga. Ang sarap idelete ng messages n'ya, ang sarap ng pagrerelease ng kupalness n'ya to friends. Hindi ko kasi ginawa 'yun to protect his image... ******* what image?!
Sabi nga ni Karen parang pakupal ng pakupal mga boys ko. Ugh, so true. Sana s'ya na ang peak at bumaba na ang trend, please?
Anyway... :) happy happy and still kinda sad.
Dahil napostpone ang tambay night nasad ako dahil napa-yes ko na rin si Earl at long last. Gagawin ko sana s'yang surprise to my two buddies. AGH! What the hell! the one time na um-Oo s'ya ay ang time na napostpone ang event. Grabe. Labas na lang kami sa gabing 'yun, coffeeshop malapit sa bahay namin. At, grabe, for more flattery! He goes to the same gym as mommy so I said nga na ma's been inviting me to go kaso hindi ko pa tin-take up. tinatamad kasi ako mag gym e... i prefer to run sa road. Alam mo sinabi n'ya "DO you even need to?" YEBAH! Thank you thank you! Sarap ng ego boost talaga!
I'm in Seattle's doing my Participant Observation. two hours worth na ang meron akong data... tatapusin ko ba? Kasi dapat till closing time... e wala namang nagbabago talaga masyado... at ang dami ko nang notes! Sige na nga, yun naman original plan ko e.
E: great in bed.
R: fuckin' crazy (in a fun way).
I: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
M: great in bed.
I: great in bed.
C: you are really silly.
H: you have a very good personality, looks and a very good kisser.
A: you like to drink.
E: great in bed.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
A: you like to drink.
Sige nga, icontradict n'yo yan! :P Miranda Morayta!
Choose what is applicable to you:
A: you like to drink.
B: you like people.
C: you are really silly.
D: one in a million.
E: great in bed.
F: you are dead sexy.
G: you never let people tell you what to do.
H: you have a very good personality, looks and a very good kisser.
I: great in bed.
J: people adore you.
K: you're wild and crazy.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
M: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
O: awesome kisser.
P: you are popular with all types of people.
Q: you are hypocrite.
R: fuckin' crazy (in a fun way).
S: easy to fall in love with.
T: you're loyal to those you love.
U: you are really silly.
V: you are not judgmental.
W: you are very broad minded.
X: you never let people tell you what to do.
Y: best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z: always ready.
Sabi nga ni Karen parang pakupal ng pakupal mga boys ko. Ugh, so true. Sana s'ya na ang peak at bumaba na ang trend, please?
Anyway... :) happy happy and still kinda sad.
Dahil napostpone ang tambay night nasad ako dahil napa-yes ko na rin si Earl at long last. Gagawin ko sana s'yang surprise to my two buddies. AGH! What the hell! the one time na um-Oo s'ya ay ang time na napostpone ang event. Grabe. Labas na lang kami sa gabing 'yun, coffeeshop malapit sa bahay namin. At, grabe, for more flattery! He goes to the same gym as mommy so I said nga na ma's been inviting me to go kaso hindi ko pa tin-take up. tinatamad kasi ako mag gym e... i prefer to run sa road. Alam mo sinabi n'ya "DO you even need to?" YEBAH! Thank you thank you! Sarap ng ego boost talaga!
I'm in Seattle's doing my Participant Observation. two hours worth na ang meron akong data... tatapusin ko ba? Kasi dapat till closing time... e wala namang nagbabago talaga masyado... at ang dami ko nang notes! Sige na nga, yun naman original plan ko e.
E: great in bed.
R: fuckin' crazy (in a fun way).
I: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
M: great in bed.
I: great in bed.
C: you are really silly.
H: you have a very good personality, looks and a very good kisser.
A: you like to drink.
E: great in bed.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
A: you like to drink.
Sige nga, icontradict n'yo yan! :P Miranda Morayta!
Choose what is applicable to you:
A: you like to drink.
B: you like people.
C: you are really silly.
D: one in a million.
E: great in bed.
F: you are dead sexy.
G: you never let people tell you what to do.
H: you have a very good personality, looks and a very good kisser.
I: great in bed.
J: people adore you.
K: you're wild and crazy.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
M: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
O: awesome kisser.
P: you are popular with all types of people.
Q: you are hypocrite.
R: fuckin' crazy (in a fun way).
S: easy to fall in love with.
T: you're loyal to those you love.
U: you are really silly.
V: you are not judgmental.
W: you are very broad minded.
X: you never let people tell you what to do.
Y: best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z: always ready.
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Starbucks naman :)
Jul. 30th, 2007 | 07:52 pm
I love his (yes, him, this new person I mentioned) quotes. :) Ang intellectual kasi e, mutual mental fondling ito... minsan nakakasawa na rin ang mental masturbation e. ^_^ Oo, alam kong gets n'yo 'yan at alam ko ring alam n'yo na masaya gumamit ng provocative words.
yun lang :) 160 na ulit. Netter! Pinel! My loves!
PS: bakit walang gwapo sa starbucks? Ay, sorry, meron pala kanina! Bakla nga lang.
yun lang :) 160 na ulit. Netter! Pinel! My loves!
PS: bakit walang gwapo sa starbucks? Ay, sorry, meron pala kanina! Bakla nga lang.
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Meme
Jul. 7th, 2007 | 10:15 pm
| You Are A Hazelnut Tree |
 You're a charmer with a killer sense of humor. You are very demanding, but you can also be very understanding. No matter what, you always make a lasting impression - you're quite popular. Passionate, you are an active fighter for social causes and politics. In general, you are moody, honest, a perfectionist, and very sexual. |
I may be aware of Barnum effect... but tell me this doesn't sound like me?
I figured if any horoscope is appropriate it's the celtic one. That's half my heritage, after all :)
Now if only a Filipino one existed somewhere :)
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I love my father.
Jul. 2nd, 2007 | 09:01 pm
If it weren't for the fact that I knew men like my father existed, I'd have allowed hotstepper to crush my image of all men. My father also taught me, directly and indirectly, not to settle for anyone less than the man who will love you more than the universe.
Just this friday was mom's 50th birthday. My beautiful mommy who looks no older than 40 :). He gave her this extraordinary watch... and he doesn't want to tell us how much it cost! On the back there was an engraving, "I love you forever, Jim"
My mom read it out loud and asked in a cutsey manner, "does forever mean until I die?"
Dad replied, "No, longer"
And the next day, during breakfast, he said that if he was ever widowed, he'd join the priesthood. And that was not a joke, he seriously meant it... I believe he really will.
They were married twice, y'know?
Since I was a baby I've listened to my parents' little anecdotes of married life. Here's a good one...
My mom was pregnant, they were living in the States and it was around 2 in the morning when my mom was hit with a craving for lechon... LECHON. My father went out in the middle of the night looking for a Filipino restaurant open and willing to serve him lechon. He found an Aristocrat's cleaning up after closing and banged on their door, he explained that he had a pregnant wife and so they served him. :) I know the same thing happened with watermelon in winter, he, again, obliged.
He told me to find a man willing to go out of his way to provide for his wife's pregnant cravings. A man not willing to do that is not worth calling a man.
I used to think, how did mom ever find my dad attractive? Haha :P I'm so mean. He's a good looking guy but at the time they were dating he had a beard and long hair. Mom was also quite ligawin and was previously engaged to a lawyer (with whom she broke up with before she even met my dad)
My father, to this day, maintains that his family loves my mom more than him. Hahaha, my aunt actually told him that if he didn't marry her, he'd be dead meat.
The story as to how they got engaged is really very fascinating.
After months (8 I think) of dating, dad had no intention of marrying mom just yet. They went out to this place and met a gypsy man. Dad said he knew the man was a real gypsy because he had this thick Romanian accent. The gypsy served them this coffee called Honeymooner's coffee, it was coffee with a shot of rhum and a sugar rim. The gypsy man looked at my dad and said, "before the night ends, you're going to ask her to marry you." They laughed it off at first and it didn't even stick in their minds... but funny enough, he did ask her to marry him that very night. No ring or anything like that, he just blurted it out.
In hindsight, he said that it's not good to waste a good gypsy curse.
27 years of marriage and he's still crazy about her.
He said something to me not too long ago, "The greatest gift a man can give his children is for him to love their mother."
So tell me... do men like my dad still exist in our generation? Yes, they have to... because my dad raised men like my brother, caring and respectful men who will love the women in their lives wholeheartedly.
Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder
I dedicate this song to hotstepper.
"I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye"
Just this friday was mom's 50th birthday. My beautiful mommy who looks no older than 40 :). He gave her this extraordinary watch... and he doesn't want to tell us how much it cost! On the back there was an engraving, "I love you forever, Jim"
My mom read it out loud and asked in a cutsey manner, "does forever mean until I die?"
Dad replied, "No, longer"
And the next day, during breakfast, he said that if he was ever widowed, he'd join the priesthood. And that was not a joke, he seriously meant it... I believe he really will.
They were married twice, y'know?
Since I was a baby I've listened to my parents' little anecdotes of married life. Here's a good one...
My mom was pregnant, they were living in the States and it was around 2 in the morning when my mom was hit with a craving for lechon... LECHON. My father went out in the middle of the night looking for a Filipino restaurant open and willing to serve him lechon. He found an Aristocrat's cleaning up after closing and banged on their door, he explained that he had a pregnant wife and so they served him. :) I know the same thing happened with watermelon in winter, he, again, obliged.
He told me to find a man willing to go out of his way to provide for his wife's pregnant cravings. A man not willing to do that is not worth calling a man.
I used to think, how did mom ever find my dad attractive? Haha :P I'm so mean. He's a good looking guy but at the time they were dating he had a beard and long hair. Mom was also quite ligawin and was previously engaged to a lawyer (with whom she broke up with before she even met my dad)
My father, to this day, maintains that his family loves my mom more than him. Hahaha, my aunt actually told him that if he didn't marry her, he'd be dead meat.
The story as to how they got engaged is really very fascinating.
After months (8 I think) of dating, dad had no intention of marrying mom just yet. They went out to this place and met a gypsy man. Dad said he knew the man was a real gypsy because he had this thick Romanian accent. The gypsy served them this coffee called Honeymooner's coffee, it was coffee with a shot of rhum and a sugar rim. The gypsy man looked at my dad and said, "before the night ends, you're going to ask her to marry you." They laughed it off at first and it didn't even stick in their minds... but funny enough, he did ask her to marry him that very night. No ring or anything like that, he just blurted it out.
In hindsight, he said that it's not good to waste a good gypsy curse.
27 years of marriage and he's still crazy about her.
He said something to me not too long ago, "The greatest gift a man can give his children is for him to love their mother."
So tell me... do men like my dad still exist in our generation? Yes, they have to... because my dad raised men like my brother, caring and respectful men who will love the women in their lives wholeheartedly.
Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder
I dedicate this song to hotstepper.
"I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye"
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Randomness...
Jun. 10th, 2007 | 04:34 pm
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From Go-Quiz.com
let's get this straight... I'm going to get pregnant... stop studying soon after... screw up and go to jail... find someone and get married... and end up depressed and miserable.
Yup. sounds about right.
I just really love the lyrics. :)
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psychoverload.
Jun. 1st, 2007 | 10:19 pm
Final Schedule :)
For more psych suicide. ^_^ it's love.
| Time | M-Th | T-F | W |
| 07:00 AM - 08:30 AM | | | Psych 160 |
| 08:30 AM - 10:00 AM | Psych 118 TFRUV | Psych 160 Lab | |
| 10:00 AM - 11:30 AM | SW40 | Psych 118 TFRUV | |
| 11:30 AM - 01:00 PM | | Psych 118 TFRUV | |
| 01:00 PM - 02:30 PM | Psych 108 MHW-1 | Psych 160 TFW | |
For more psych suicide. ^_^ it's love.
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What have I been up to?
May. 1st, 2007 | 11:08 pm
This...
AND ONLY THIS...
http://tomatoerin.multiply.com/photos/al
more to memorize...
bye for now :)
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C...R...S...
Apr. 12th, 2007 | 09:17 am
can you imagine if they did this CRS real-time thing on a regular sem? They'll bring everybody down with them when they crash! I gather, even PLDT. Just imagine the sheer number of students trying to get online!
My DSL isn't working... I don't know why. It was working just this morning. I'd be so pissed off had this happened and I wasn't able to get my subjects during preenlistment. i mean, that's precious time taken away from you when you have to find a net cafe nearby... and, not to mention, losing a lot of money when it takes THIS LONG to log on!
I finished watching Mala Educacion last night. Shet..... I LOVE Gael Garcia Bernal... I just ... up until the visuals were actually flashed on my screen, I couldn't imagine him playing explicit gay roles. Tranny, sure... but the actual act of having gay sex... not until i watched that movie...
I still love him, though... ^_^
This whole Imus thing bothers me. I may not like what he said... but to persecute him that way is unfair and unconstitutional according to the 1st amendment. He has as much right to his freedom of speech as any other person does...
I believe a person is entitled to their opinion whether we agree with it or not. I do think he's a racist but that doesn't give me any right to stone him.
tama si rika:
Rika: imus?
Rika: ah ung radio?
Erin: parang nirereserve ang 1st amendment for self-righteous leftists e... nakakainis
Erin: yup
Rika: onga di ako agree dun
Rika: sus nood kaya sila southpark
Erin: TRULY!!!
Rika: diba
Rika: politics yan
Rika: kasawa na
Rika: lol
Wala lang... eto pa
-= [about obama vs hillary] =-
Rika: kso ewan ko, racist pa rin mga tao dito e
Rika: pero sya [obama] matunog, so far
Erin: ang america napaka ironic
Rika: labo america
Rika: malabo
Erin: parang... sa kanila nanggaling ang mga ideas of liberation socially and otherwise
Erin: pero... namamangha pa rin sila sa mixed marriages
Rika: onga eh tsk tsk
My DSL isn't working... I don't know why. It was working just this morning. I'd be so pissed off had this happened and I wasn't able to get my subjects during preenlistment. i mean, that's precious time taken away from you when you have to find a net cafe nearby... and, not to mention, losing a lot of money when it takes THIS LONG to log on!
I finished watching Mala Educacion last night. Shet..... I LOVE Gael Garcia Bernal... I just ... up until the visuals were actually flashed on my screen, I couldn't imagine him playing explicit gay roles. Tranny, sure... but the actual act of having gay sex... not until i watched that movie...
I still love him, though... ^_^
This whole Imus thing bothers me. I may not like what he said... but to persecute him that way is unfair and unconstitutional according to the 1st amendment. He has as much right to his freedom of speech as any other person does...
I believe a person is entitled to their opinion whether we agree with it or not. I do think he's a racist but that doesn't give me any right to stone him.
tama si rika:
Rika: imus?
Rika: ah ung radio?
Erin: parang nirereserve ang 1st amendment for self-righteous leftists e... nakakainis
Erin: yup
Rika: onga di ako agree dun
Rika: sus nood kaya sila southpark
Erin: TRULY!!!
Rika: diba
Rika: politics yan
Rika: kasawa na
Rika: lol
Wala lang... eto pa
-= [about obama vs hillary] =-
Rika: kso ewan ko, racist pa rin mga tao dito e
Rika: pero sya [obama] matunog, so far
Erin: ang america napaka ironic
Rika: labo america
Rika: malabo
Erin: parang... sa kanila nanggaling ang mga ideas of liberation socially and otherwise
Erin: pero... namamangha pa rin sila sa mixed marriages
Rika: onga eh tsk tsk
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Bye bye!
Apr. 11th, 2007 | 12:52 am
music: Juanes - La Paga
beggars sometimes irk me... No, not because I'm a mean heartless person... which they may actually make me believe sometimes... but because, not only are they asking money from you, but they don't even listen to what you say.
Beggar: Ma'am *mumble ...* ma'am...
Me: Huh?
Beggar: Ma'am... *mumble* baon lang po ma'am
Me: (annoyed by the fact that he's eating his words and that his pagmamakaawa is so fake) Smile ka muna.
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am
Me: Smile nga muna e
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am (still following)
Me: Bibigyan nga kita, smile ka muna!
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am
Me: Ayaw mo magsmile?
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am
Me: putres... E di wag (walks faster)
I'm going to throw my cellphone away... I really am! I can't stand this... I have no freedom.... no alone time.... no peace of mind.
Ayer me dijiste que tu me querias... pero todo fue mentira
Beggar: Ma'am *mumble ...* ma'am...
Me: Huh?
Beggar: Ma'am... *mumble* baon lang po ma'am
Me: (annoyed by the fact that he's eating his words and that his pagmamakaawa is so fake) Smile ka muna.
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am
Me: Smile nga muna e
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am (still following)
Me: Bibigyan nga kita, smile ka muna!
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am
Me: Ayaw mo magsmile?
Beggar: Ma'am sige na po ma'am
Me: putres... E di wag (walks faster)
I'm going to throw my cellphone away... I really am! I can't stand this... I have no freedom.... no alone time.... no peace of mind.
Ayer me dijiste que tu me querias... pero todo fue mentira
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Giggle giggle
Apr. 7th, 2007 | 04:09 pm
music: Marvin Gaye - Let's Get it On
I'm happy...
and frumpy...
But, nonetheless, happy :D
and frumpy...
But, nonetheless, happy :D
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I have no Fabio :(
Mar. 29th, 2007 | 11:47 pm
How sad.
My Fabio backed out... sched problems.
Oh well...
My Fabio backed out... sched problems.
Oh well...
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The Closeted Romantic -- Looking for Fabio!
Mar. 25th, 2007 | 06:35 pm
So... my org thinks I'm a closeted romatic, do they?
Hahaha! I can't get over Glenn's romance novel cover, Fabio idea... I might actually do it. But where do I get a hot, tall, buffed, long haired manly man? I was shuddering as I typed that... and laughing. Haha :P
Another thing... where do I get one of those flowy midwestern scarlet o hara dresses?
Oh my gawd... I'm giddy. Hahaha :D
Hahaha! I can't get over Glenn's romance novel cover, Fabio idea... I might actually do it. But where do I get a hot, tall, buffed, long haired manly man? I was shuddering as I typed that... and laughing. Haha :P
Another thing... where do I get one of those flowy midwestern scarlet o hara dresses?
Oh my gawd... I'm giddy. Hahaha :D
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low blow
Mar. 7th, 2007 | 04:21 pm
haay... i can't believe they'd go that low. Grabe lang.... it's too... blatant.
Anyway, I love you Nikka! Grace under pressure talaga.
Migs, you didn't deserve the underhanded way the elections transpired. I love you too!
PERO
Congratulations to all the alyansa candidates who won! To Victor and all our councilors USC and local, CONGRATS!
Enough about that... it's hurtful enough as it is. I'd never have survived... test talaga ng principles ang elections.
Today sucked. Dahil sa Pi Gamma Mu (congrats to all my friends who are being inducted) closed ang comlab... my 162! Paano na 162 ko?
Kung alam n'yo lang ang panliligaw na ginawa ko sa participant ko... shet. Ang hirap n'yang hagilapin. In fairness to him, busy talaga s'ya...today was supposed to be the day we finish our testing... BUT NO!!!! so I had to talk to him face to face just so I could set a definite schedule. tomorrow 4pm. SA WAKAS!
Yun lang... welcome back, my boring life.
Things to do:
GPOA
Bio Lab -- plates and study for the 4th exam
162 personality profile+2nd exam
145 song selection+exam
Anyway, I love you Nikka! Grace under pressure talaga.
Migs, you didn't deserve the underhanded way the elections transpired. I love you too!
PERO
Congratulations to all the alyansa candidates who won! To Victor and all our councilors USC and local, CONGRATS!
Enough about that... it's hurtful enough as it is. I'd never have survived... test talaga ng principles ang elections.
Today sucked. Dahil sa Pi Gamma Mu (congrats to all my friends who are being inducted) closed ang comlab... my 162! Paano na 162 ko?
Kung alam n'yo lang ang panliligaw na ginawa ko sa participant ko... shet. Ang hirap n'yang hagilapin. In fairness to him, busy talaga s'ya...today was supposed to be the day we finish our testing... BUT NO!!!! so I had to talk to him face to face just so I could set a definite schedule. tomorrow 4pm. SA WAKAS!
Yun lang... welcome back, my boring life.
Things to do:
GPOA
Bio Lab -- plates and study for the 4th exam
162 personality profile+2nd exam
145 song selection+exam
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Divine Days
Feb. 7th, 2007 | 01:00 pm
The one thing we will have to realize
Is that the prerequisite of being human
Is to be in complete and total lack of control
No matter how calculated our steps may be
Chaos has always ruled our existence
And it takes a divine hand to undo all the damage we do
The miracle is in finding our way toward the next day
After the trail of destruction we left during the last
Our will to move on cannot be our own
But something more, much more than human.
All these faults and fissures engrained into our existence,
It is awe-striking how they are blown away with each sunrise
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RIP Chris
Dec. 3rd, 2006 | 11:17 pm
mood: 
drained
Just now, I ran a quickie visit to Chris Gabriel's wake in St. Jerome (mom was in the car so I really had no choice). I'd just found out now that he had passed away yesterday. If I hadn't visited tonight, I never would've been able to.
I don't know the details of how he died, and the people I talked to --his batchmates-- weren't really sure of what happened either. I just know it was a car accident.
Chris was (that's a funny word, isn't it? ..."was") my COPO EIC back when I was a sophomore. I just never thought that the next time I'd encounter him would be in a coffin.
Rest in peace, boss.
I always thought I'd experience this feeling when I turn 35 or so... y'know mid-aged. The feeling wherein your friends/acquaintances are dying left and right. God bless their souls.
Remembering:
Debbie
Maxi
Reg
Chris
I don't know the details of how he died, and the people I talked to --his batchmates-- weren't really sure of what happened either. I just know it was a car accident.
Chris was (that's a funny word, isn't it? ..."was") my COPO EIC back when I was a sophomore. I just never thought that the next time I'd encounter him would be in a coffin.
Rest in peace, boss.
I always thought I'd experience this feeling when I turn 35 or so... y'know mid-aged. The feeling wherein your friends/acquaintances are dying left and right. God bless their souls.
Remembering:
Debbie
Maxi
Reg
Chris
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The Meaning of Freedom
Nov. 26th, 2006 | 10:24 pm
Ma'am Ortega asked us what indigenous name we'd like to have... If you translate the root of my name, Erin, it means Peace; therefore Kapayapaan would've been appropriate. Had it been up to me, I would've wanted Laya (second choice: Alitaptap).
Freedom seems like such a simple concept but so difficult and abstract to truly grasp. I found my meaning of freedom in a book I read (and re-read again and again) when I was much much younger. It is still my favorite book of all time; Wyrms by Orson Scott Card.
J.P. Sartre had similar ideas... albeit far more morbid. Paraphrased, he said that merely living is a choice. If you so choose to, you may end it.
"There are people who do things for the fear of the lash. There are people who do things for fear they will lose their families or their lives. Are they not slaves?"
"They are slaves of their passion. Their fear rules them. What power do you have over me if I am not afraid of your lash? Am I your slave, if I am not afraid to lose my family? I obey you, faithfully, completely, because I choose to; am I your slave? And when you come to hate me for my freedom, which is greater than yours, and you command me to do what I will not do, then I stand before you in disobedience. Punish me, then; I choose to be punished. And if the punishment is more than I am willing to accept, then I will use such force as is necessary to stop the punishment, and no more. But never, for a moment, have I done anything but what I choose to do."
"Then no one is as strong as you."
"Not so. I've given my obedience to God, and use my best judgement to carry out his purpose, when I have some understanding of it. But those who have chosen to give their obedience to their passion, or to their memory, they freely choose to obey. The glutton freely overfills his belly, the pederast feeds on innocence, and the fearful man obeys his fear -- freely."
"You make it sound like our desires are separate from ourselves."
"They are..."
I learned many beautiful concepts from this book. When I read it for the first time I simply read the story, but on the second time I'd started to decipher the implicit messages.
Another passage gave me a different perspective on the human mind. An honest and bold perspective;
Inside our heads, all of us, we are alone. And all of our knowledge, all of our art, our literature, the body of human wisdom, was born from loneliness; born from one lonely human being crying out to another.
"...Solitude is the foundation of true wisdom, that all the brilliant thoughts in this house come as the desperate cry of one human being to another, saying, Know me, live with me in the world of my mind."
However you wish to interpret this is up to you. I found it beautiful because it reminded me of the fact that we need each other.
Which leads me back to a memory when my father told me to marry someone I can talk to. Whenever you see my parents together, they are always talking, that's an observation made by a friend of theirs. Surprisingly, Ma'am Ortega said the same thing just last week. I quite agree; I wouldn't want to spend my life lonely... and God knows I know what it feels like to be surrounded with people and yet be so completely alone.
Looks fade and wither and some day, in our age, all our eyes will see is darkness. Physical attraction is important but secondary, an afterthought. Love comes when you know you can share your world, the one you built inside you, with theirs. Two worlds united and made one from that moment on. I pray to God that I find someone to open my world to, someday, and to lure me away from the deception of the human physique. It's a worthwhile prayer... and I hope He answers it.
Freedom seems like such a simple concept but so difficult and abstract to truly grasp. I found my meaning of freedom in a book I read (and re-read again and again) when I was much much younger. It is still my favorite book of all time; Wyrms by Orson Scott Card.
J.P. Sartre had similar ideas... albeit far more morbid. Paraphrased, he said that merely living is a choice. If you so choose to, you may end it.
"There are people who do things for the fear of the lash. There are people who do things for fear they will lose their families or their lives. Are they not slaves?"
"They are slaves of their passion. Their fear rules them. What power do you have over me if I am not afraid of your lash? Am I your slave, if I am not afraid to lose my family? I obey you, faithfully, completely, because I choose to; am I your slave? And when you come to hate me for my freedom, which is greater than yours, and you command me to do what I will not do, then I stand before you in disobedience. Punish me, then; I choose to be punished. And if the punishment is more than I am willing to accept, then I will use such force as is necessary to stop the punishment, and no more. But never, for a moment, have I done anything but what I choose to do."
"Then no one is as strong as you."
"Not so. I've given my obedience to God, and use my best judgement to carry out his purpose, when I have some understanding of it. But those who have chosen to give their obedience to their passion, or to their memory, they freely choose to obey. The glutton freely overfills his belly, the pederast feeds on innocence, and the fearful man obeys his fear -- freely."
"You make it sound like our desires are separate from ourselves."
"They are..."
-=:::::::::::::::::::::On Human Solitude and Love:::::::::::::::::::::::=-
I learned many beautiful concepts from this book. When I read it for the first time I simply read the story, but on the second time I'd started to decipher the implicit messages.
Another passage gave me a different perspective on the human mind. An honest and bold perspective;
Inside our heads, all of us, we are alone. And all of our knowledge, all of our art, our literature, the body of human wisdom, was born from loneliness; born from one lonely human being crying out to another.
"...Solitude is the foundation of true wisdom, that all the brilliant thoughts in this house come as the desperate cry of one human being to another, saying, Know me, live with me in the world of my mind."
However you wish to interpret this is up to you. I found it beautiful because it reminded me of the fact that we need each other.
Which leads me back to a memory when my father told me to marry someone I can talk to. Whenever you see my parents together, they are always talking, that's an observation made by a friend of theirs. Surprisingly, Ma'am Ortega said the same thing just last week. I quite agree; I wouldn't want to spend my life lonely... and God knows I know what it feels like to be surrounded with people and yet be so completely alone.
Looks fade and wither and some day, in our age, all our eyes will see is darkness. Physical attraction is important but secondary, an afterthought. Love comes when you know you can share your world, the one you built inside you, with theirs. Two worlds united and made one from that moment on. I pray to God that I find someone to open my world to, someday, and to lure me away from the deception of the human physique. It's a worthwhile prayer... and I hope He answers it.